Mike's Journal

1:45am: lessons learned...
i found out a few days ago kalup wasn't the one who was jacking people's shit. I feel like a real ass and talking today to eric and jesse, i learned a few things. 1) dont suspect ANYONE unless you have proof. We all thought Kalup stole the shit because he loves to steal, he was HELLA broke (livin in a van unable to pay for even decent food), and at the time him and mike (the one who had his shit stolen) had a little beef going on between them. We thought because of all that that kalup was the one who did it, it wasn't. I know I for one feel pretty bad. Jesse and eric said they both did investigating on their own (separately) and knew a long time ago kalup wasn't the one who stole it. I learned my lesson and i feel bad. I have to get the facts before i blame anyone. Another thing i learned 2) is that when i have money, share it with my friends. This is one thing i never really practiced, im the kind of kid who is always, "you pay your way and ill pay mine." My new neighborhood is like this tight community, everyone shares with everyone. Everyone is bumming cigarettes off of everyone, and everyone is buying beers for everyone. they dont even wait until you ask if you can have one, they ask you, "hey, you want that beer?" One person buys one thing and everyone shares. I used to not like that because, since i always am the one with money, i feel like im getting cheated, ripped, or used. But even eric, a 26 year old alcoholic living with his parents who spends %100 of his paycheck on cigarettes and beers shares everything he buys with everyone, AND JOYFULLY!!! I have to learn how to start sharing... 3) its not what you've accomplished, its who you are. I learned that by becoming friends with eric and jesse. although accomplishments are nice additions, they dont mean nothing, its who you are as a person that really matters. This is a big lesson for me because im always trying to strive for something great. Black belt, dean's list, starting a club, getting involved in government, education, etc. When it comes down to being a person tho, almost none of that matters. I did learn however, that education saves you a LOT of heart ache. Eric is HELLA depressed and it showed the other day, if he knew a little about philosophers like Sarte, kierkegard, and heidegger he wouldn't be AS depressed or feel so helpless. I admit, im no philosopher expert by far but i know a little about them and it's helped a lot in my understanding of life. Also, education keeps you from becoming poor, its your ticket out of here so to speak. Cause no matter how much everyone loves everyone, they would love the chance to get out of the neighborhood (and they would take everyone along one way or another too!). Jesse is hella tight, ive been hanging out with him recently. He's this buff puerto rican but he looks hella black, I think he's like 32 and he's been in jail for beating up his drill sergeant (marines dishonorable discharge) and for involuntary manslaughter (spent 3 years in San Quinton). He loves to drink and fight. He's currently unemployed but has been playing the guitar for about a year now. He's one of the coolest guys i've met. He loves to share beers and cigarettes and he's always cracking jokes and making everyone laugh. He's the kind of person you wish you were, if only you had a successful job. Anyways, im done ranting for tonight. LOL Cathy (my landlord, sort of) came to me RIGHT NOW and started giggling like a school girl, her boyfriend (sort of) bought her a promise ring today and she felt so happy. Also, she goes to this club and there are 3 OTHER guys that have a crush on her and none of them are aware of the others, she said, "i feel like one of those prom queens" with a smile from ear to ear that her eyes crinkled with genuine happiness (something i haven't seen in a long time from anyone, too long). She's so cute, in that old sort of way. O, some ketchup news, Maurice and his girl got kicked out of the place they were staying (landlord a doped up idiot) and so they stayed about 2 weeks in the trailer until Nicole got hella drunk and him and her got into a BIG!!! fight. So now they both are sleeping in the living room, that brings the head count to 10 people staying here with 7-9 cats and 4 dogs. Me, Cathy, Mike, Jeff, Maurice, Nicole, Susan, Javier, Howard, and Tony. Man, what a house... Cathy is SOOOO wonderful. She has a heart the size of mike's ego =). Saschechez finally stopped YEARNING for female pussy after about a week and is finally back to humping Dubin's leg while he's sleeping. Mike has about a month left before he goes into the marines =( i dont know what me and jeff are gonna do afterwards... Mike won his lawsuit against Sunnyvale Dodge. He won $2,200 and bought a car with the money (good for mike!) he bought a manual 91 honda civic hatchback (white). Maurice and Jeff plan on enrolling in adult ed over at del mar so they can get their diploma/GED. Nicole needs some help, but im glad maurice is there for her. If he wasn't i would really be scared. Nicole lost her uncle last week, she was hella sad, maurice wasn't around when she heard the news so she broke it to me. She started crying and i didn't know what to do so i put my arm around her and lowered my head. I dont know what to do... what do you say when someone comes up to you and tells you out of the blue that a loved one died? She's getting better, im really glad maurice isn't that bad a boyfriend. I changed my major, instead of switching back adn forth between social science with concentration in teaching (single subject) and philosophy, im just gonna double major and do them both. I'll be at sjsu for 3 1/2 - 4 years which i don't mind. I'm starting to piece together that the neighborhood is full of alcoholic smokers and loose women. The more the merrier. Well, I'm gonna check out, ill see you guys later, O one more thing. My birthday par-tay is coming up soon and i CANT WAIT!!! its going to be so much fun. all my friends coming together and finally meeting every one of my other friends. Eric and Jesse love to talk and meet new people so i dont have any doubts people wont be meeting other people and chillin with em. It'll be a BLAST!!! i cant wait to see the sun rise over the beach either. Ah, the many joys of life... Peace!

1:44am: Awesome...
ok... go ahead and laugh. Ok, now that thats out of the way, everythings been kick ass except for one thing. Well, let me get it out of the way first, this girl who i hella liked and became friends with for 9 months i found out had sex about 2 weeks ago with one of my old best friend's boyfriend who she only knew for a week if that. Girls are such bitches... anywayz, on with the kick assness. Man, Eric can tell stories like no other, the other day he was telling stories about how our dog Dubin almost shit on Tony's face and the time he lapped up cat shit straight from the factory. I was laughing so hard i literally almost puked. I started work at my security gig. It's hella cool but the game I worked was hella rowdy. It was a mexican vs italian soccer game with 12,000 drunk mexicans. it was pretty cool. Living on my own has been a blast. I'm meeting cooler and cooler people every day. We had a swim BBQ twice at my house and it was a blast both times. It was me, mike and maurice mejia, jeff, and eric. I finished summer school, man what a bitch. I hate summer school with a passion. Moving on, the other day i tried to get into this 15 year old's pants but i was hella too drunk =(. Mike Mejia almost made it and got her digits. I got a girlfriend but i dumped her because we didn't connect. I started playing guitar again now that summer school is done with. We found out today that jason sold his house already and doesn't live there anymore. Today i got fucked up and a company BBQ where i hella drank and smoked a few cigarettes. I couldn't drive home for shit. Later that same day maurice got into a humongous fight with his lady the same time mike got into a big fight with his mom. Me, mike, and chip then went to the forum and had an awesome time. There was the most cutest girls there I've ever seen that night. =). i'm kinda getting sick of forum, i want to go to raves where its all about the music, i hate this freaking crap. Not that theres anything wrong with it i just would rather bust out to kick ass songs instead. In a nut shell thats whats been happening the last 2 months. I'll try and keep you guys posted. Lates =)

10:54pm: finally able to post...
well, sorry about the not posting part but Jeff has been on the computer every night using "findapix.com" *sigh*... well, the day after my last post Chip wanted to throw a big party so ALL day me and Joe cleaned up the house. We did a REAL good job and when it came down to the party a lot of people showed up. Only one problem... no one had any money for alcohol. The party bombed and everyone (including Joe and Chip) went to another house. Afterwards, Chip came back and looked sorta angry. He asked me if i wanted to go with him grocery shopping (I cook a lot at his house =). We went and had a good time shopping. When we got back he needed to pick up Joe who was still at the party. We got there and sure enough she was messing with some guy. We all went home and that was about it. The next day me and Alex were cooking dinner for our Marie's. We had fun making dinner and the night was good. Afterwards we went to go see 2 fast 2 furious. The only part i saw was about the first 20 minutes of the movie. The rest of the time me and marie were getting to know each other better ;). The next day I went to go have coffee with Marie over at the pruneyard. We talked for around an hour and then went back to my place and got to know each other some more. I came home to Chips house that night and got SOOO drunk i didn't believe it was humanly possible. The ENTIRE room was spinning and i couldn't tell anything from anything. I spent a good hour with my new best friend the toilet bowl. I couldn't even make out the puke in front of my face :(. The next day (today) i woke up at 1:00 w/o a hangover and got STD tested. Later that night me and Marie got a little closer then i think we wanted to. I just got back from dropping her off. Tonight I made HELLA pasta, for Marie's we made pork chops, salads (good ones too!), and rice. Once Chip's oven starts working ill be making chicken, ribs, and brownies (!!!). Sirus had some of his shit stolen, Mike had his car broken into, and Chip had his paintball gun stolen. Im afraid ill be next (I suspect Calup) so I started thinking about my car. You cant get in my car with a hanger/steel claw because the wiring from the power windows and locks get in the way. I make sure I have nothing valuable in there (only cologne and a shirt or two). And I took out the car's manual so if someone DOES get inside they cant look at the manual and find out how to jump start my car. I think I handled the situation quite well. I want to study cars and be able to start working on my car. I need to get my books for school. My grades are awesome. I just got them in. For Fall and Spring semester all my grades are A's and B's EXCEPT for my english class fall semester... I got an F!!! I'm disappointed but ill make it up. O, if i haven't told you im sure i got the security job with mike and i start working at mrs. fields again on friday. Well, ill see you all later. Hope to hear from y'all soon.

12:52am: Best day of the year!!
wow, today i saw my friend Alex and he invited me to go to the beach with him and some friends. I said, "sure, why not," and went off for santa cruz. On the way there he burnt his clutch out and we were stuck for a couple of minutes. When we got there I felt hella sick because before we left I had a gargantuan slice of cheese and on the way we were making infinite turns. On top of that I was reading the entire time so my head was spinning, aching, and I felt pretty carsick. So, when we got there I was hella sick and had to lie down for about an hour. O, the book I was reading was one I picked up earlier that day about how to fix and understand cars. Anywayz, there was some people I didn't know so I introduced myself. There was one girl though who really struck me as "WOW!" She was real cute and seemed hecka nice. One thing lead to another and everyone was playing truth or dare. After a while, the dares started getting kinky and then like, "ok, make out with anyone you want for 3 minutes." I chose the cute one (named Marie) and made out with her a couple of times. When the game was finally over we started making out on the sand. Afterwards we decided to get everyone up and go to denny's. While there we were holding each other and I was massaging her back. After Denny's we had to go and visit a friend who couldn't go to the beach because it was her mom's birthday. We got there and went to her room and we started making out. After that we had to drop everyone off. When we dropped Alex off we made out some more while he gave us some time alone. We exchanged numbers and left. I told her I'd make plans so I can cook dinner for her on Sunday, then she can meet my cool room mates. She's a pretty cool chick and so far she seems like a keeper. She wants to be a speech therapist and just finished a year at west valley. She has blonde hair and blue eyes and a REALLY pretty smile that crinkles her eyes (she's so CUTE). Anywayz, things are hella looking up and ill hope they stay that way. Good night peoplez

8:33am: Patato
sorry i couldn't post this morning but Jeff was imersed in the world of Zelda. I think I woke up this morning at Chip's house, me and PJ spent the night. I was the only one up so I went over and ran some errands. I went online to check my accounts and I discovered that Wells Fargo raised my credit card limit to $1000!! I am SOOO happy because I wasn't sure if you can raise your limit with a student visa. I've had my credit card for almost 10 months now and I've been paying all my bills in full. Last night I hung out with the imfamous Sarah Scott and it was pretty cool actually meeting her. I've heard all the stories from Pat and Alex and it was nice actually meeting her for the first time. Anywayz, I ran my errands and afterwards stopped by Chip's house to chill (Mike was sleeping). Chip wasn't home and Joe was sleeping. I told Joe to get some sleep and off I went to Safeway to buy dinner. I went to Safeway and bought some spagetti. While in line who do I see walk though the door other than my mother herself! She helped me pick out my spagetti and told me how to make it! She was real nice! The bagging lady was HELLA hitting on me. She kept smiling at me and hella wanted to "help me out to the car". When I got home Joe was real excited that I had bought pasta, I guess her dad loved to make pasta and she hasn't had any since she's been staying with Chip. She was still a little tired so I left and went home to pick up some stuff. While getting in my car I ran into David and Joe. I signed Joe's year book and lo and behold Pat appears. I invite Pat to dinner, seeing how I'm a master chef, and asked his grandparents if he can come. When I brought him to Chip's house the first thing that happened was Joe took me aside and told me that Pat's hella hot. I told her that he had a girlfriend (but I had a feeling she wouldn't take that into consideration). Pat finally met the infamous PJ and they were pretty cool together. Chip and everyone were going to go off and explode some soda bottles. I told Pat to join them while I make dinner for everyone. Pat didn't want to leave me but I told him to go and hang out with everyone because I just need to cook (im boring like that). After some convincing on me and Joe's part Pat left. I made dinner really well and it came out pretty tasty. They were gone for a while so I turned on some of my favorite tunes. When I got tired I turned off all the lights and repeated the last track on the "louder than bombs" album from the Smiths. I was laying on the couch and singing along. Mike Mejia showed up from work and ate some pasta. Soon after, everyone showed up and we all had a good time eating pasta. After talking with Joe I was a little disappointed in Pat, he didn't do anything with her but he's one of my best friends and I have to look out for that guy. He's like the little brother I never had. Sometimes I feel like Joe's the little sister I never had too. Anywayz, I was drinking a little so I asked Chip if he could take Pat home. Sirus came over drunk and I gave him some pasta (I told him earlier I would). He was HELLA funny. When Chip came back we were all watching south park and I was falling asleep. Chip wouldn't have mind if I stayed the night but I didn't want to intrude. As I was getting ready to leave I remembered that "a chef always cleans up after himself" (Jeff) and started for the kitchen to clean up the big mess. Chip told me not to worry about it because I've been a cool guy and told me to go home. I came home, worked out with Mike, ran some errands, and went to sleep (on the floor once more). All in all it was a kickback day but I got some stuff done. Later everyone.

7:08am: The sh*t hit the fan...
wow, tonight was a big one. In the morning the cops were called on Kalup because his van has been parked in our street for a couple of days now. Kalup has been "freeloading" and doing some other things that have made everyone in the neighborhood (except Joe) mad at him. They just told him he had to move his van. Me and Joe went job hunting together got hella applications to hecka places. When we got back we chilled at Chip's house. I finally met the infamous Sarah for the first time. She was pretty nice and I can see why Pat and Alex had a crush on her a while back. Her and PJ are pretty cool. Anywayz, Kalup finally got his van to start. The entire day Eric was drinking. I'm pretty sure Joe likes me but that's not saying much (she likes a LOT of guys). Later that night Eric got so drunk that he wanted to have a "walk" with Kalup. They were out there for some time and when it was over Kalup came up to me and said "it's over, I'm out of here," then when I asked where he would go he said, "I dunno, hopefully off a cliff so I can kill myself." Whatever Eric said he actually struck a chord with Kalup. I was pretty amazed because NOTHING gets through to Kalup. He just blows it off saying the person's jealous. I went to Eric and he said, "If I ever see the f*cker in this neighborhood again I swear I'm gonna beat his ass. And I dont care if I go to jail or not, he's gonna get a major beat down." Everyone took the news with great joy, everyone except Joe of course. She was mad at Eric and went inside crying. To help calm Eric's anger I bought him another 40. On the way there and back we ran into some enemies of his old tagging crew. A fight almost broke out between the two. On the way home from that escapade, Eric ran into his ex-girlfriend who's f*cking his best friend. Eric wasn't too happy about that and said some things he probably shouldn't have said to her. Back at the house I was drinking a little Bacardi and Eric was at this time so drunk you couldn't understand him. He went inside and I went up to talk with Joe. On my way up Chip was pulling into the driveway (he left earlier because Joe wouldn't talk to him after hearing the news about Kalup). I talked with Chip and he had PJ with him. We went inside and Joe was laying on the couch fast asleep with tear stains in her eyes. I felt sorry for her and wished I had came up earlier. We watched some Jerry Springer and I fell asleep after eating a few of my tomales. I woke up around 2 hours later to find the Jackass DVD playing and Chip and Joe fast asleep. I went outside and there lied PJ sleeping on the couch. I went back to Mejia's house and got some water. I found out today that I'm pretty good with alcohol. I can drink and get drunk, not puke or feel sick, handle myself well and make decent decisions, get way nicer and friendlier, and not have a hangover the next morning. Joe on the other hand... it took her over 2 days to get over her drinking episode and spent those days with major headaches. What a night; Kalup, gangs, ex-girlfriends, 16 yr old drama. It had to have happened sooner or later, and all of us knew it was coming. None of us thought it would happen like this though, except maybe Eric. From talking to a lot of people in and around the neighborhood the most used saying is, "this block is f*cked up." Well, I have to take my contacts out and fill out some applications. Ill talk to you all later.

5:20am: more quiz results
1-2 people. Better than the everlasting virgin, but
still relatively Republican. Good luck with
that.

4:00am: Tonight, Tonight what a wonderful night
wow, all i can say is that this past week has become the best week of my entire life. This morning I washed my car in only shorts (I had to leave my shirt off for the ladies ;), right Marisa! *nudge nudge*). I made sure I washed it hella good since I havent washed it in something like 6 months (womp womp waaah). I took around 3 friggin hours!!! Ill tell you this though, when I was through my car looked so good... I wanted to be a gas station so I could PUMP that beauty!! It took so long though that I didn't have time to do my windows (which were SOOO disgusting!). Afterwards I went to Chip's house so he can shave my head. When he finished we took a picture of the cool designs he shaved in my head. Then Chip let it out, in front of Joe, that Joe likes me (there was DEFINATELY some awkward silence). It was cool though. Afterwards me, Chip, and Joe went to go pick up and drop off some friends. Chip drove (my car) because Joe wanted me to come and sit in the back with her (I originally didn't want to go but Joe insisted). One of the cool people we picked up was this sophmore who looked and sounded EXACTLY like a cross between Marisa and this girl Christina Haro who went to my school (OMG I can go on for dayz about Christina, ask me about her when you get the chance!). We went to Mrs. Fields so I can get cookies for everyone (my idea). I told Chip to drop me off and to pick me up in 10 minutes because I wanted to chat a bit (I know the workers). When I came back to the car Chip said, "notice anything different about the windows?" Those awesome people cleaned my windows for me while they were waiting =) We came home and I got ready to go out dancing. I got ready and went dancing. There was SOOO many people there, I've never seen so many people there in all my life. I had a lot of fun though. I LOVE to dance, Joe wished she could come but it was 18+ (she's 16). She wanted me to not go and come with her to a party but... dude, I would chose dancing over girls any day! I came home pretty early (and sweaty!) to find Joe and Kalup chillin in Kalup's van. I chilled with them for a few and talked about life, nothing too deep but just things concerning the future. Kalup asked me why I didn't have a girlfriend and I told him because I didn't want one at this point in my life, that I need to focus on other things. I think that was a little harsh on Joe... =( Chip got home and Joe was worried he was mad at her. I gave Chip my parking spot (because someone didn't leave enough room for his usual spot) and talked with him. Later, we (Mike Mejia, Jeff, Chip, and I) went up to Mike's room and chilled. We talked (err.. Chip talked) about what has been stressin our minds. We all decided Kalup needs to go (if you get the time, ask me about why). I wanted to cheer Chip up so I offered to cook whatever he wanted me to. So, off we went to Safeway. All of us had a good time and came back with tortillas, lollipops, whip cream, and baby oil ( ;) for me). Then we went to go eat donuts at yum yum's. We mostly talked about Kalup and Joe. Kalup and Joe are pretty sexual around each other. All that is fine and dandy but Kalup has a serious girlfriend and he doesn't seem to care and is actually pround and flaunts the fact that he can get two women. We are like, "dude, what a dick. He is totally fucking over his girlfriend and he has no shame." O, I forgot to tell you, Joe is cute and all, and I've sort of been flirting with her but I wouldn't do anything with her because 1) she's drama, 2) i feel more like a big brother who needs to take care of her, and 3) I dont need it. We all went up to the apartment (Chip's house) and Mike cooked us all some enchilladas! Joe fell asleep on my crotch while I was stroking her hair and Chip fell asleep on her shortly afterwards. I told Jeff and Mike we should go so as they were getting ready I woke Chip and Joe up and while they got their bed ready I cleaned up the mess we made (out of respect for Chip). We left and now I'm here. When I wake up me and Joe are going to be job hunting together all day. At 2:00pm me and Jeff have an interview with the place Mike Mejia and Eric work at. I want to save money so I can fix up my car. I want to realign my trunk (hopefully Sirus can hook me up with a deal), get some side wings ($199), get a new front ($199), and then get a new paint job (around $300). I realized recently that that car will be with me for a LONG time so I might as well make it look nice and treat it good because I love her and she loves me and it'll be that way for quite some time. I love that baby ('97 Nissan Sentra). Anywayz, tonight was great but tomorrow will be better. Take it one step at a time Joe. Life is crazy but people are crazier.

2:00am: not bad for a f*in drunk!
hey, i am hella drunk while im writing this. This last week has been a blast!! First, I went to the beach with Mike Nguyen (good friend) and Bridgette. We had a hella good time! So many beautiful women! The next night was the day before Mike Mejia's 21st birthday. I had a little alcohol but nothing too much. The next morning we went to the beach and had a bon fire. I got HELLA drunk and said some things about my cousin (who I brought) that I probably shouldn't have said. The next morning, I didn't get in trouble although SHE did! I was SOOO happy! Now, she isn't allowed to hang out with me (whoopie!). The next night I had a bon fire with Alex and friends over at Aptos Beach (very beautiful I might add) and had a grand ole time. The next night I played guitar all day and went to go see one of my favorite DJ's later that night (Donald Glaude). It was $20 friggin bucks but it was well worth it. I was dancing like a maniac and I noticed a couple of girls checkin me out (maybe because it looked like I was having a seisure =D). The next night I moved in to Mike Mejia's house and put my stuff in. I finally got a hold of Pat (after about 3 friggin months, or longer!) and we hung out. We talked all night over some bacardi. I missed that fool =D! The next day (today) I woke up from my car (i got locked out for staying out too late) and went to go get gas and food for later tonight. I got food I could hella cook. I bought some pork chops, macaroni and cheese, rice, and some pinto beans. On the way home (I walked) I stopped by my friends work and left her a "have a awesome day" note (she wasn't on yet). Me and Mike later went and visited Mike and Matt Gillette at their house. I love visiting them at their house because me and their sister (freshman in HS) hella smile at each other and I am pretty sure she likes me. Honestly (alcohol talking) I would love to have me and her alone together!!! Later that day I was the only witness to Mike Mejia getting his first and only piercing (it was SICK!! literally!) We celebrated that night by me friggin' cooking and everyone getting drunk. Across the street lives this girl named Joe (nickname) who's 16 and she's hella cute. Tonight, I THINK she hella liked me. She was getting friendly (but not freaky =() with me, but I wouldn't do anything with her, although she's a HELLA cool person to hang around with! I think her and Kalup may be doing something on the side... but then again, I'm wasted! I made some pork chops and macaroni and cheese (while drunk) over at Chip's house (where Joe is staying) and had a feast. I was the hella star cook (even though I was pretty f*ed up from the Bacardi!) and also made sure I washed each and every dish I used. I talked with Eric earlier tonight about some philosophical shisnat (same subject me and Pat were talking about the other night). He friggin knows a lot although he would never put it bluntly... he'd rather put it into riddles so that only people willing to think would catch his message. Tonight is the most f*ed up I've ever been! Honestly, while I'm writing this, the entire room is spinning around!! This has probably been the best week of my life. I'll hope to keep you guys updated... love yas (hey Marisa... WASSUP!!!)

P.S. Hey, not bad writing for someone who's drunk!!!

10:11am: omfg
omfg i hate live journal, i just wrote the longest post and tried to update and it said "error: cant backdate w/o backdate option on" so i tried to go back to fix it and my update was deleted... omfg

12:00pm: Some quiz results

What Kind of Virgin Are You?
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What Sign of Affection Are You?
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What kind of porno would you star in?
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How can I label you?
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lol


Who are you most likely to fuck
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(all the choices were guys... so i guess this would be a preppy girl)


What's your brand of sexy?
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What Is Your True Aura Colour?
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How Emotional Are You?
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10:00pm: Reflections... sort of
Geez, im here listening to the cali governor race, and I'm bewildered by how close the race has become. I dunno, I really...REALLY want me move to Canada or Australia because i hate the direction this country is going. But, it'd be kinda hard since I'm studying to become a california teacher. I heard Australia isnt as technologically advanced as we are and that Canada has double the unemployment rate. Although... i think living in Canada would be nice. But then again, look at Canadian guy (lol). *sigh* I chose my schedule for spring. Here they are

Monday
9:20-10:45 Kickboxing
10:55-12:20 Bio 10 (intro)
12:30-1:55 Adv Beg Tennis

Tuesday
9:20-10:45 Phil 3 (ethics)
10:55-12:20 Comm 1 (public speaking)
12:30-1:55 Yoga
3:30-4:30 Senate
5:00-7:00 Couns 5 (college success)

Wednesday
9:20-10:45 Kickboxing
10:55-12:20 Bio 10 (intro)
12:30-1:55 Adv Beg Tennis
3:00-4:30 Hacky Sack Club

Thursday
9:20-10:45 Phil 3 (ethics)
10:55-12:20 Comm 1 (public speaking)
12:30-1:55 Yoga
2:00-3:30 ICC
3:30-4:30 Senate
5:00-7:00 Couns 5 (college success)

Friday
Off

Im thinking about joining soccer... hmmm, maybe. I cant take "stretching and flexability" or join the "teachers for tomorrow" club. Oh well... i just learned that Davis is going to remain governor...*sigh* oh well, i guess it'll be the lesser of two evils at least. FUCK!!! i just heard the republicans have control of both the House AND the Senate. *sigh* the next few years are going to be interesting. This means most of what Bush proposes will be approved by congress. I'm getting tired. I'm gonna head off to sleep, damn, i have an essay due first thing in the morning... shit. *sigh* it's gonna be a long night...

O, before i leave... i had a long discussion about Bob Dylan with one of my teachers. He was a HUGE fan from the very beginning and has all his records (actual records). It was cool to find out that both our favorite song was "boots of spanish leather". To celebrate the song, here's the lyrics...

Oh I'm sailin away my own true love
I'm sailin away in the mornin
Is there somethin I can send you from across the sea
From the place that I'll be landin

No there's nothin you can send me my own true love
There's nothin I'm wishin to be ownin
just to carry yourself back to me unspoiled
from across that lonesome ocean

Oh but i just thought you might want somethin fine
made of silver or of golden
either from the mountains of Madrid
or from the coast of Barcelona

o but if i had the stars from the darkest night
and the diamonds from the deepest ocean
I'd forsake them all for your sweet kiss
for that's all I'm wishin to be ownin

O but i might be gone a long ole time
and it's only that I'm askin
Is there somethin i can send ya to remember me by
To make the time more easy passin

O how can, how can you ask me again
it only brings me sorrow
the same thing i would want today
i would want again tomorrow

o but i got a letter on a lonesome day
it was from her ship a-sailin
sayin "i dont know when ill be comin home again
it depends on how I'm a feelin"

O if my love you must think thata way
Im sure your mind is a roamin
Im sure your thoughts are not with me
but with the country t'where you're a-goin

So take heed, take heed of the western winds
take heed of the stormy weather
and yes theres somethin you can send back to me
spanish boots of spanish leather

What makes this song so special is not only the lyrics but the way he sings them and the way he plays the song (solo acoustic by the way) brings out some real emotion. Me and my teacher agreed on that.

PS - Governor Davis is making his acceptance speech at this very moment (11:55pm)

8:37am: I know i will piss some people off but this IS a journal for my thoughts. Okay, now read
One of my best friends, Pat, has this “girlfriend”. I put it in quotes because they say they’re not TECHNICALLY going out although they make-out, kiss, hold hands, talk forever on the phone every night, and talk about each other all the time. The last time they tried to make it “official” they got into a big fight and stopped talking to each other. The whole situation is stupid. Anyways, both weren’t talking to each other and both were talking crap so I felt kinda bad. I found out both of them wouldn’t mind being friends but would NEVER be boyfriend/girlfriend. So I invited both of them to go and see a movie with me. What a surprise… as soon as they saw each other all they did was kiss, make-out, and throughout the entire movie made dumb comments. Whatever, it doesn’t really bother me that they got back together, but it DOES bother me the way they act. When we watched a movie in my room one time they rolled off my bed onto the floor and crawled into my closet where I heard kissing and moaning for over 2 hours. I just sat there on my bed thinking about how I could be doing better things instead of listening to them (I couldn’t ditch them… I’m not a rude host). When I drive no one sits in the front with me; I feel more like a chaffer than a friend. They both sit in the back and make-out while I drive her to and from her house. Once in a while Pat would talk to me but not in the way he would normally talk to me. I can tell he uses a different tone of voice, a tone he uses when he’s around certain girls. *sigh* and when they are together they totally ignore everyone around them. They are always in a hug, whispering and giggling with a peck here and there. Pat points out things and makes fun of it for her. When we “hang out” the only time they talk to me is if they need something “I think Marisa has to be home soon” or feel obligated to talk to me “so, how’s it going”. Wow, I really love “hanging out” with them. Why do I put up with it? Because Pat is one of my best friends. But sometimes I feel like that isn’t a good enough answer and I should just say “screw it” and turn a cold shoulder until they break up again. Although, it is kind of entertaining. When I think about Marisa and Pat I laugh and remember the reason why I didn’t take any girl in high school seriously. Pat feels Marisa is too “clingy” and indecisive; Marisa feels Pat is wasting his life and she can’t communicate with him. Wow, the perfect components to a perfect relationship. Good luck guys. I hope it lasts as long as it can.
In my cultural anthropology class my professor pointed out that cultures don’t always know what’s good for them, and that people hold certain beliefs and ideas that affect themselves negatively. I made the assumption that not only cultures but people don’t always know what is good for them. I was thinking about this and the first people who came to mind were Pat, Marisa, and Linda. Then, it crossed my mind that I too probably don’t always know what is good for me and that I probably hold beliefs and ideas that effect others and myself negatively. This is a pretty obvious statement but not really one most people sit down and address. Sit down and think about which beliefs and/or ideas are negative ones. Some are obvious while others are not so obvious. It can be pretty difficult, try it.
The two songs that stick out of my mind when I think about Pat and Marisa are “Little 15” by Depeche Mode and “Idiot Wind” by Bob Dylan. “Little 15” is dark like many Depeche Mode songs but what stands out to me most are the lyrics. I don’t know what Pat is thinking while he is making-out with her but I do know he is a hopeless romantic. The lyrics in “Little 15” I feel reflect something about the way he thinks and also includes Marisa's depressive and "clingy" side. Oh, and what makes this a little bit more special is that Marisa is 16 years old… close enough to 15.

Little 15
You help her forget
The world outside
You’re not part of it yet
And if you could drive
You could drive her away
To a happier place
To a happier day
That exists in your mind
And in your smile
She could escape there
Just for a while
Little 15

Little 15
Why does she have to defend
The feelings inside
Why pretend
She’s not had her life
The life of mere Mrs.
Now all that she wants
Is dreaming of fishes
She wants to see with your eyes
She wants to smile with your smile
She wants a nice surprise
Every once in a while
She wants to see with your eyes
She wants to smile with your smile
She wants a nice surprise
Every once in a while
Little 15

Bob Dylan’s “Idiot Wind” reminds me of Marisa and how much Pat means to her. The song only reflects half of what I think Marisa is feeling and the other half is how I would probably feel if I were in her shoes. If I were her, I would have known by now that we aren’t right for each other and even though we hit it off and were crazy about each other, that we acted like idiots.

It was gravity which pulled us down
And destiny which broke us apart
You tamed the lion in my cage
But it just wasn’t enough to change my heart
Now everything’s a little upside down
As a matter of fact the wheels have stopped
What’s good is bad
What’s bad is good
You find out when you’ll reach the top
You were on the bottom
I noticed at the ceremony
Your corrupt ways had finally made you blind
I can’t remember your face anymore
Your mouth has changed your eyes don’t look into mine
The priest wore black on the seventh day
and sat stoned-face while the building burned
I waited for you on the running boards
Near the cypress tree while the springtime turned slowly into autumn
Idiot Wind
Blowing like a circle around my skull
From the Grand Coulee Dam to the Capitol
Idiot wind
Blowing every time you move your teeth
You’re an idiot babe
It’s a wonder that you still know how to breathe

I can’t feel you anymore
I can’t even touch the books you’ve read
Every time I crawl pass your door
I’ve been wishin’ I been somebody else instead
Down the highway
Down the tracks
Down the road to ecstasy
I followed you beneath the stars
Haunted by your memory
And all your raging glory
I’ve been double-crossed now for the very last time and now I’m finally free
I kissed good-bye the howling beast on the borderline which separated you from me
You’ll never know the hurt I suffered nor the pain I’d rise above
And I’ll never know the same about you, your holiness or your kind of love
And it makes me feel so sorry
Idiot wind
Blowing through the buttons of our coats
Blowing through the letters that they wrote
Idiot wind
Blowing through the dust up on our shelves
We are idiots babe
It’s a wonder we can even feed ourselves

11:53pm: Ben
Hey everyone,
I just got back from seeing Bob Dylan with Katie's boyfriend Ben. Bob Dylan is pretty cool but he didnt really sing much. He like, rambled phrases. Me and Ben hung out and it was pretty cool. He gave me this big black eye but its okay because he bought me this cool shirt. We drove home together and talked about our ideal woman. Oh God how I wish I could find that woman. Anyways, I'm at his house right now on his Mac (lol) while he is rocking out on his guitar. Man, I wish I could play half as good as he can. He is just amazing and busting out with all these krazy tunes. I guess he's been playing for 3 years straight. He kicks hella ass. Anyways, I have to go. Its kinda late so I have to get back home. I'll see everyone later. Much Love

2:31am: Return of the Postage
Hey, sorry i havent posted in a while. I have been super busy and on top of that my comp broke down. I still dont have it fixed so i am constantly pissing my brother off by kicking him off his own comp. A big reason why i dont post any more is because some of posts would be about people who are reading my post. Well, i dont care anymore. Ill fill everyone in soon cause im real tired right now... i still have to write an essay and workout. Peace everyone

12:46am: Linda can listen and Tanisha's right around the corner (sounds like the name to a real cool song...)
Well, today at work i got a lot of things off my chest. Thanks Linda for listening to all my rambling. I dunno, like, I used to tell EVERYTHING to Phil, but now, since he's in college at Monterey, I dont have anyone to tell everything. I mean, i tell mostly everything to Pat and most things to alex, brian, and linda, but the things i dont really like telling people about i only had phil to talk to. I guess it all came out tonight on Linda. Oh well, i guess it was as close as a bonding experience you can get while at work. Linda's a hip chick. Woah, i hella bought a new guitar book that is like 800+ pages thick full of nothing but Bob Dylan songs (i think i died and went to heaven). A lot of my favorite songs are in there. In case you didnt know, the SOLE reason i started playing the guitar was to be able to play Bob Dylan songs. That was my only reason to start. So getting this MEGA Bob Dylan book is hella exciting for me. It's a good book too. It's organized and written well.

My brother messed up his hand pretty bad today. *sigh* i wish things like that didnt happen to him. He hella deserves better but i dont know what i could do about it. I want to go and see Tanisha on sunday. Its a VERY long story but she's a VERY cool person who is stuck way out in the boonies. I havent seen her in like... a year and a half i think. I always said that when i get my license ill go out and see her. Well, i have her address on disk but it isnt working on my brothers computer. I hope i can fix it before sunday. I cant wait to see her. I wonder what ill bring her...? I wish i had a cd burner so i could burn her a compilation "mike" cd. i guess ill bring her a cd of some kind. She LOVES the outdoors but, like, she LIVES in the outdoors (boonies). Maybe i should bring dog...? I know she loves dog but i dont know if he can survive the trip. She likes depeche mode, metallica, and the blues. She also likes making hemp necklaces and dancing (techno). She's a people person but last time i talked with her she had a job gutting fish (yuck). !!! I CANT WAIT TO SEE HER!!! its been so long... too long. I dont like, like her as a girlfriend or anything (in case your wondering), but shes a real good friend... like, a REAL good friend. I feel kinda bad we left on awkward terms but im sure it wont be awkward when i see her (i hope).

Well, i hope i can recover her address. Ill keep posting but until then... keep it fun.

12:50am: Well, i got my license today!!! I am so excited. I actually went and picked my brother up from school. College (west valley) is so much fun. The classes are hella cool and the teachers are even cooler. I think thats because they actually KNOW how to teach, unlike most of my teachers in high school. I have to check up with Greg and see when he can check out the Karate place i want us to sign up at. I want to take this ninpo class with him mondays and wednesdays. I miss martial arts... i miss the flexibility i had and knowing i could take anyone on the street (im not too sure anymore).

I've been playing hacky sack A LOT recently. I'm carrying it around with me everywhere i go and playing on a daily basis. My legs are actually sore, lol. I totally want to start up a hacky sack club at West Valley (ill be looking back on this a few weeks from now and wondering "what the hell was i thinking"). When i go to school on monday im gonna head over to the club room and pick up a packet on how to start up a club. I've heard its relatively easy but still. Well, i got my license today and i also got pulled over by a cop today :(. I guess i was driving without my lights on on my way home from work. At least he didnt give me a ticket. I thought he caught me speeding but i guess he didnt notice or something, lol. I got my check today ($272.92). I hella need a better job. I want to work at home depot but with Mrs Fields I'm guaranteed a job as a bartender as soon as i turn 21. My boss used to own a night club and was a bartender for 10 years. He's so cool and interesting. He's lived in Tibet, Indonesia, China, Denmark, scuba diving in Australia, and all this cool and crazy stuff. He's hella nice too (bartending) and makes friends like nothing (bartending).

I totally want to buy tickets to go see the Rolling Stones and buy the velvet underground box set. I also want to buy the movie Rushmore. I have the Royal Tenenbaums and i even showed it to pat and marisa but... i guess they got lost half way through the movie. It's hella good and i felt real bad at the end because they didnt get it or even have a chance to appreciate it. Oh well. It's one of those movies you like more the more you see it. I also need to buy Windows 98 (again) and a cd burner. OH!!! and i also need to buy another guitar book and a cd player for my car.

Shoot. I need to do some homework. I want to join the Alpha Beta Gamma (?) club at west valley. It's a club that requires a 3.0 gpa and they do community service and raise funds for west valley. It sounds like fun. Anyways, i hate that 3.0 gpa requirement though. At least it'll give me SOME motivation in doing my homework.

YEAH!!! I'm gonna see Morrissey one week from tomorrow! OMG i LOVE Morrissey. What i want to get though is a cat stevens t-shirt. I cant find one ANYWHERE!!! Even on the net (?). I now have a favorite music radio station... THE WAVE 93.3. they play mostly good songs. Most are just "kick back and relax while i play you this tune" sort of feel. I listen to the wave at work and in my car, but when it's past 10pm i switch it over to KGO NEWSTALK 810am and listen to my man... BERNIE WARD!!! (M-F) If you haven't heard his program... LISTEN TO IT!!! it's hella good and i feel soooo sorry for people who dont tune in when he gets real fired up. He is on for 3 hours and every hour he changes the subject, so if the first subject is lame (which sometimes it is) just tune back in in an hour. remember, 810am M-F 10pm-1am, the Bernie Ward program.

Well, what better note to leave on then that of Bernie Ward. Ill see ya later and dont forget to comment.

P.S. College is a blast

4:39am: Dog
I just got back from walking my dog (4:30am). I was falling asleep and i heard cat stevens play the song "i love my dog" so i was like "i love my dog" then went over to my dog and asked her if she wanted to go for a walk. Of course she said yeah and off we went. My dog LOVES walks. She cant get enough of them. If she had the choice she would probably walk ALL day long if she could. I love my dog. She is a cute puppy beagle. I have pictures of her at work so every time i work she's with me. "I love my dog" is one of those songs that doesnt really sound good if you dont know how it goes cause he sings the song kinda wierd. So if you think the song is kinda wierd it'll make sense once you listen to him sing it

I love my dog
as much as i love you
but you may fade
my dog will always come through

all he asks from me is the food to give him strength
all he ever needs is love and that he knows he'll get

so i love my dog
as much as i love you
but you may fade
my dog will always come through

All the pay i need comes shining through his eyes
I dont need no cold water to make me realize that

I love my dog
as much as i love you
but you may fade
my dog will always come through

*chorus*

2:06am: Updatetation
dude, girls hella rock. They're like the ying to my yang (no pun intended). Today was a good day. I went in to work early so i could play hacky sack with my co-worker Alex. He's kinda decent but i was hella showing off the goods when all of a sudden he kicks it onto the roof. That kinda sucked. Then my boss calls me and tells me i can go home early *WOO HOO*. My friends were there so i kinda wanted to leave and hang out with them, you know, how school is starting soon and everything. Well we drive and meet up with some people and then we have to go. So on the way home i look over into the car next to us and there was this HELLA cute blonde girl who gave me this smile that said like, "wow, i would hella be your girlfriend". Then i looked away. *kicks himself*. It's times like this i remember why im single.

Im starting college (community) soon so im real stoked about that. I love school. If i had the choice i would go to school the rest of my life. I got my books and i cant wait to get in. I still have to get used to waking up at 8am though. Over the summer i always went to bed at 6am. Lately Ive been going to bed at around 3am though (im getting there). I used to get home from work at around 1am and then work out for an hour and then check the internet for about 30min to an hour, do my "man stuff", and then try and read a little and play my guitar and play my piano and then eat and watch maybe 30 min of tv. I would finally get to bed at 6am. Lately my computer broke (reason for not posting recently) and i found out i could learn a lot more if i just played one instrument for 2 hours instead of 1 hour each.

Damn, I am one kick ass guy... I just tell it like it is.

i saw bruce springsteen play at the san jose arena the other day. I know this sounds a little cliche but, even if you dont like him or his music you HAVE to see him live. He is sooooo amazing. What i cant wait for is Bob Dylan (!!!). I cannot wait to see him. I love him sooooo much. Im gonna see him Oct 10 and 11 and im gonna try and get tickets to see him Oct 8. DUDE! You know who else i cant wait to see...? MORRISSEY!!!! (of smiths fame). i cant wait to see him next month (sept 14).

I saw my best friend Phil yesterday. He helped me out at work and afterwards we went to the park and played hacky sack while we listened to cat stevens on his boom box. I love cat stevens. If you havent heard him, pick him up. But anyways, i miss phil so much. It's gonna be different without him. Me and him were so much best friends that he would come in my house when no one was home and wake me up and then we would hang out the rest of the day. He is the only friend i have that can hack better than i can (barely). He is the coolest guy you'll ever meet (yes, cooler than me). He moved to Montery last month because he's going to CSUMB (California State University Montery Bay). BTW he LOVES it there. He surfs, hacks it up, jams on his drums with fellow dorm mates, and hangs out with all the ladies (its like a 80 to 1 girl to guy ratio over there or something). I'm glad he likes college so much.

I bought the Royal Tenenbaums movie a few days ago. I LOVE that movie. I also love Rushmore (same people). If you haven't seen either, check em out. I still havent seen bottle rocket yet... i will soon though.

At the moment i am $100 in debt because of the bruce springsteen concert. I need some money so i can buy the Velvet Underground box set (oh yeah). I also need to buy a new guitar book (i finished book 1 tonight). i probably should save the rest of the money but ill probably end up spending it all somehow. OH YEAH! I also need to buy some more AAA rechargeable batteries for my graphing calculator. Dude, rechargeable batteries are the way to go. Think about all those batteries you waste when all you can do is recharge them. I love rechargeable batteries so much that at one point in my life (a long time ago) i once wanted to learn about how batteries functioned and wanted to work for a battery company like energizer or panasonic.

I need to start saving for college. Not West Valley (my community college) but for SJSU (San Jose State University). I might have to stay at West Valley for 3-4 years if i dont have the money. I recieved a $1000 grant from the state of california for doing well on the star tests so that would help a little. But if i dont have enough after two years then ill go to west valley and study to become a massage therapist (1 year) and if i dont have enough money after that ill go another year and learn spanish. If, after that, i STILL dont have enough i should be 21 by then and i have a friend that can definately hook me up with a bartending job. So, with a bartending job i should be able to afford my years at college and the time after for the teaching prep school (or whatever that is).

Well, i guess im gonna leave now. Im getting kinda tired typin all this and im sure your just as tired reading it. Have fun whatever you do tonight. later

2:16am: First Post
Hey everyone, I'm so stoked about getting this livejournal account. I've always wanted to keep a journal but i hate writing, so keeping an online journal is perfect. I've wanted to have a journal because i know that when i get older ill most likely remember only a few instances at the age im at now, if i keep a journal i can remember every day or so of my past. I think remembering where you come from is important and you cant know where you come from if you forget. Well, a lot of things have been happening so i guess ill start now. I turned 18 a few days ago and it was pretty fun. I failed my driving test because i did a "dangerous maneuver". It's ok though because after that i got my credit card at wells fargo. I have a 500 credit limit which i dont mind. I have my checking account set up so that it pays my credit card bill in full. I went to Great America for my birthday and lost my wallet. That sucked. I bought a brand new wallet that day too and i was real stoked. I also had my high school diploma in there. That sucked even more. On Monday I'm heading over to the DMV to schedule another appointment to get my drivers license and register to vote. I'm hella going to register with the green party. I cant wait to go out there and vote my arse off. The election for governor of California is taking place in November. I hope Camejo wins (my vote).

Well, more recently my best friend is leaving today at 6:00 AM for college. He's attending Monteray State. He can hella surf so he's excited to be living near the ocean. We said goodbye last night (morning now). It was kinda sad. I know ill be seeing him again though so i know it wont be that bad. He's been my best friend since 1st grade. We're so close that he comes in my house when im the only one home and wakes me up to go do stuff. We do everything together. If we arent working we're hanging out. He's the coolest dude around. He has a real level head and we connect like nothing other.

Well, this morning my friend Alex is going to pick me up in about 8 hours to go to church. I went for the first time willingly last Sunday with him. During the session i started feeling ill and i went to the bathroom to throw up but i couldnt so i went out the back door to get some fresh air and as soon as i stepped out i passed out. I hit the right side of my head on the concrete and it left some pretty bad bruises. When i regained consciousness i was too weak to move so i laid there for a while and slowly worked my way to a sitting position and then to a standing position. I've only blacked out one other time in my life and that wasn't even a year ago. I was in class and the teacher was talking about some of the tribes in Africa and how they circumsize females and lace up their vaginas. Now I'm typically not a visual thinker but for some reason for that moment i was. I started feeling sick and blacked out. Well, church didn't go well last week and i hope my second time is better.

I'm baptized as a Cathlic but i haven't really gone to church. I mean, i believe in God, i love god and i know god loves me, and i believe in jesus christ and i know he died for our sins. Thats what i think thats all you should know. All the stories just tell stories and stuff. Well, i went to church and i was really scared. I believe in god but i dont believe in church. It scared me. I guess people believe that ALL things that happen, big or small, happened because god wanted it to happen. I totally dont believe in that, or at least in that big of context. I believe that god gave you a free will and that things happen because they happen, with a scientific viewpoint. I believe god can show you something but not control everything in everyones life. What would be the point of a free will if god controls everything, even you and me at this moment. They also say giving to god is hella good and would get you in heaven. Hey, if you want to serve god and do works in the name of him thats fine with me you know, but i believe again in free will and that god doesnt really care if you do things for him or not as long as you love him. Was it me or is god's love unconditional? again im not putting down doing things for god, im just saying that you shouldnt need to do things to show your love when he knows you love him, if you want to do things for him im sure he appreciates it but i dont think its something you should preach in church. If you want to do it go ahead and do it. Do it out of love and not because the church told you. I dont get it. Again im not putting down doing works for him. Heck, i take a step back and tell that big guy i love him all the time. Another thing the church does is say that "that person is depressed because blah blah blah" and its a religious answer. I believe that the person is depressed because of things going on in his/her life. To me it seems like they use God as an answer for every problem. Whereas for me i dont see God as any answer. I feel like they are running away from a problem if they just simply say "it is because of god's will" or say that it happened because god wanted it that way. I do not believe that. To me, god isnt behind anything (except maybe a celestrial moment or something).

To me, God created us and gave us a free will. He looks on and loves everyone. He may occasionally show someone something or give someone a vision. I believe that all i need to get into heaven is to love jesus christ and believe he died for my sins.

If anyone wants to argue with me go ahead but the above statement is what i believe when it comes to religion. I dont really preach religion, heck i dont even think my closest friends even think i believe in god. When it comes to living a "christian" life I actually live like more of a buddhist life. I got my black belt in karate so im into all that meditation and yoga stuff. Im also really calm and live my life peacefully without ANY worries (except when it comes to Bush). Heck, my favorite musician is Bob Dylan (real name Robert Zimmerman). My favorite thing to do is turn on some soothing music and relax, which i do quite often. I dont lose my temper and the only time i get aggravated is when i get a lack of sleep and not because someone made me mad. Anyways, feedback about religion would be appreciated. I like hearing peoples opinions and views that dont reflect my own.

You know what gets me going? When people claim that America is a christian nation. Regardless of how religious you are it is not a christian nation. Even the founding fathers didnt want it to be a christian nation. They wanted it to be a nation that included everyone regardless of age, sex, ethnic background, religious background, and color. Thomas Jefferson released a statement regarding that the nation is not a christion nation on i believe november 5 in the mid 1770's. One of the Johns (there was so many i couldnt remember which one) also wrote a statement similar to Jefferson stating that the nation and christianity are seperate and forever remain seperate. when people bring up the stupid fact that "in god we trust" is printed on the money i always remind them that those exact same people in fact owned slaves. My point is that even though they were our founding fathers not everything they did was fair/equal/non-discrimatory. They realized this and allowed the constitution to be ammended for that reason. Thus, America is not a "Christian" nation. Again, if you have a different view go ahead and post it. I would appreciate it.

Well, i think thats all im going to post for now. I want to leave you with a song by bob dylan called "with god on our side". This is off his third album in 1965 when it was still just him, his guitar, and his harmonica. No band, no trying to impress anyone, just him and his words. Go ahead and analyze the entire song and tell me what you think about it.

Oh my name it aint nothin
my age it means less
the country i come from
is called the midwest
I's taught and brought up there
the laws to abide
and that the land that i live in
has God on its side

oh the history books tell it
they tell it so well
the cavalries charged
the indians fell
the cavalries charged
the indians died
for the country was young
with God on its side

the spanish-american
war had its day
and the civil war too was
soon laid away
and the names of the heroes
I's made to memorize
with guns in their hands
and God on their side

the first world war boys
it came and it went
the reason for fightin
i never did get
but i learned to accept it
accept it with pride
for you don't count the dead when
God's on your side

the second world war
came to an end
we forgave the Germans
and then we were friends
though they murdered six million
in the ovens they fried
the Germans now too have
God on their side

i've learned to hate the Russians
all through my whole life
if another war comes
its them we must fight
to hate them and fear them
to run and to hide
and accept it all bravely
with God on my side

but now we've got weapons
of chemical dust
if fire them we're forced to
then fire them we must
one push of the button
and a shot the world wide
and you never ask questions
when God's on your side

through many dark hour
ive been thinkin about this
that Jesus Christ was
betrayed by a kiss
but i can't think for ya
you'd have to decide
wether Judas Iscariot
had God on his side

so now as im leavin
im weary as hell
the confusion im feelin
aint no tounge can tell
the words fill my head
and they fall to the floor
but if God's on our side
he'll stop the next war